I've been bulking for 3 years, going from 48kgs to 69kgs at a height of 5"3 (male, unfortunately). My stats are pitiful.
bench - 70kgs squat - 90kgs deadlift - 120kgs
I started from the bar in all 3 exercises, weighing in at 48kgs from an improversished south asian family that only consumed rice and beans.
Since then, I've changed to a proper diet consisting of lots of meat and some meal replacement drinks for calories.
My concrete question is: Despite a good training and weight gain from good nutrition, what are some tell-tale signs that one simply does have to build strength/muscle at the average level? Low t-levels? Bad protein absorption?
I have tried for 3 whole years, with PTs, bulked 20kgs, and have far below-average progress. It makes no sense for me to go on 5 years what the average adult in the western world can accomplish in 1 year.
I was under the impression once I reached "average" lifts (my stats now), my progress would get much faster and better because I'm nearly as strong as the average western man who doesn't work out. But if anything, my strength is stalled like a wall and i've grown a full belly flab.
In a world where masculinity and strength are prized, it is painful and emotionally exhausting thinking about how low my potential is.
Therefore my question is: under what conditions is ok to stop training and bulking with the same instensity? Have I already reached diminshing returns?
(And please: spare me the "you never quit training heavy bro" BS. You have no idea how difficult and mentally debilitating it is to be in my position. You would've done yourself in, a long long time back :))